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BUY GENERIC PROVIGIL NO PRESCRIPTION, Greetings, ducks, from Dallas/Fort Worth airport, where my Texas sojourn is finally at an end!

I usually like to take a day to recover after having my face electrocuted, although given the relatively light workload nowadays I don't really need to. For recovery, Buy GENERIC PROVIGIL without prescription, you may read "sleep til noon, make a Starbucks run for breakfast, and then take a swim in 100-degree weather." It also means a Buffy the Vampire Slayer marathon on Hulu!

I've mentioned how much I've come to love Buffy, cheap GENERIC PROVIGIL. The characters talk like I want to, GENERIC PROVIGIL dose, except even cooler. And they're all so cute. And I really like Willow, where can i buy cheapest GENERIC PROVIGIL online, who like yours truly is a redhead. I'm even a bit like her--bookish, intensely interested in learning new things, convinced that knowledge is power.

There's another side to her, of course--as the series develops, Willow become interested in magic and witchcraft, and later comes out as a lesbian, BUY GENERIC PROVIGIL NO PRESCRIPTION. Purchase GENERIC PROVIGIL, (Not at the point I'm at in the series, though; right now she and Seth Green's Oz make an adorable couple. And then there' the Evil Vampiric Willow, GENERIC PROVIGIL for sale, from the episodes The Wish and Doppelgangland--the inhabitant of an alternate world where Buffy never came to Sunnydale, GENERIC PROVIGIL gel, ointment, cream, pill, spray, continuous-release, extended-release, and she and Xander are two of the meanest vampires in town.

I watched both those episodes on this trip, and maybe it's just that I recently decided to try going off my antidepressants, but I really felt like Evil Willow for a while yesterday--that is, buy GENERIC PROVIGIL no prescription, I seemed to be channeling my inner Bad Girl, GENERIC PROVIGIL dangers, someone who's probably dying for a workout right about now--she sees so little sunlight.

In this mood, I decided to run out and find some books on feminism.

I'll admit that for somebody who writes a blog largely about theoretical issues, I'm not nearly as grounded in feminist theory as I'd like to be, purchase GENERIC PROVIGIL online. So, Order GENERIC PROVIGIL from United States pharmacy, having time on my hands, I drove over to the local Barnes and Noble to see what I might be able to turn up in the way of anthologies or Large Omnibus Editions. Of course, buy GENERIC PROVIGIL online no prescription, I thought that my location might have some difficulties that I might not have in the Great American Metropolis--but Dallas is a surprisingly progressive city, GENERIC PROVIGIL over the counter, I had been seeing Obama/Biden bumper stickers, and I figured what the hell, Barnes and Noble is homogeneous, buy cheap GENERIC PROVIGIL no rx, that's what everyone complains about.

As it turns out, Where can i find GENERIC PROVIGIL online, I did end up finding bell hooks' Feminist Theory, but it took some doing.

First I had to locate the Women's Studies section of the bookstore. BUY GENERIC PROVIGIL NO PRESCRIPTION, This was not immediately apparent, and I wandered through Fiction and Literature, Self-Help, Literary Theory (which in a really incongruous bit of geography, was right next to Westerns) before I found the single half bookcase that was my goal--wedged in between Gay and Lesbian Fiction and African-American Studies. My initial assessment wasn't promising--there was a guide to mystical female symbols, GENERIC PROVIGIL without prescription, a copy of Everything I Needed To Know I Learned From Other Women, Low dose GENERIC PROVIGIL, and The Feminine Mystique, which would be good reading from a historical standpoint but not what I was in the mood for.

In contrast, there was a four-bookshelf deep Christianity section, GENERIC PROVIGIL blogs, a whole table devoted to Twilight (vampires. GENERIC PROVIGIL price, coupon, cool. with Mormon values. yikes!) and a book called Surrender, GENERIC PROVIGIL natural, wherein a woman whose husband re-enlists in the Army (without telling her) and gets shipped off to Iraq learns how to avoid temptation but submitting to God (and, GENERIC PROVIGIL used for, presumably, her husband's) will.

By this point I wanted to be wearing my vampiric leather corset, mutter "bored now" in my Evil Willow voice, herbal GENERIC PROVIGIL, and start flipping over bookcases.

I didn't--like I said, GENERIC PROVIGIL class, bell hooks saved me--but it was a good thing I found her book before I browsed the magazines, because "women's interests" always grates on my nerves. I mean, seriously, BUY GENERIC PROVIGIL NO PRESCRIPTION. Besides, GENERIC PROVIGIL treatment, there was a time I wasn't a woman, Buy GENERIC PROVIGIL without a prescription, and let me tell you, I was interested.

It didn't help that on my way to get dinner (Whattaburger: must take advantage of the cuisine de terroir), I passed a Halliburton office.

I think I'm going to adopt Evil Willow as the mascot of this blog, GENERIC PROVIGIL long term. She'd be useful as a counterpoint to, GENERIC PROVIGIL results, say, Maureen Dowd. I always have such hope for Maureen--I mean, get GENERIC PROVIGIL, she's a snarky redhead with a voracious sexual appetite and a ton of power; that's pretty much my mission statement. Order GENERIC PROVIGIL from mexican pharmacy, Yet she writes stuff like this:

As in all great affairs, Mark Sanford fell in love simultaneously with a woman and himself — with the dashing new version of himself he saw in her molten eyes.

In a weepy, taking GENERIC PROVIGIL, gothic unraveling, the South Carolina governor gave a press conference illustrating how smitten he was, not only with his Argentine amante, but with his own tenderness, his own pathos and his own feminine side.

He got into trouble as a man and tried to get out as a woman.
Way to go, Madame Dowd. Thank goodness sexism is over, or else I might get upset that even rich and famous women feel the need to practice it!


Bored now. Wanna hunt.




Categories: all about me, beauty mythology, teh tranz, This Was My Life

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In the 26 months since I decided to transition, SLIMFAST no rx, Discount SLIMFAST, I've made a number of physical alterations to my body, both to make me feel better about myself, ordering SLIMFAST online, SLIMFAST mg, and to make it easier for me to blend in the world as a woman. The vaginoplasty you already know about; I've made oblique mention to the fact that I had breast implants done at the same time, SLIMFAST forum. Australia, uk, us, usa, (The rumors are true about that: the augmentation hurt more than the GRS; it's one thing to not be able to sit up for several weeks, and quite another to not be able to move your arms for four days.) And seventeen months ago, about SLIMFAST, SLIMFAST from canadian pharmacy, right when I went fulltime, I had plastic surgery to trim down my jaw and chin, SLIMFAST samples, Is SLIMFAST safe, which were quite heavy once upon a time.

None of these visible surgeries were to make me more conventionally beautiful, not even the breast implants--it was always about just trying to have something resembling the female body I feel I should have had, where to buy SLIMFAST, SLIMFAST reviews, if things had only turned out differently. (Seriously, Scout's honor, and you know, I was a Boy Scout once.)

But my longest investment in time and money has been electrolysis, to remove what's left of my beard.

Getting rid of my facial hair was actually a project I began long before I began to seriously consider transition; I started laser treatments about a month after I separated from my wife, BUY SLIMFAST NO PRESCRIPTION. Even though I wasn't really thinking of it as a step towards transition, canada, mexico, india, Purchase SLIMFAST for sale, I still had a lot of trepidation about it--after all, ti was the first thing I had ever tried to permanently feminize my appearance, SLIMFAST cost, Buy SLIMFAST online cod, and as such it became a mental Rubicon of sorts; if I crossed that barrier, would I inevitably start on a transition path, herbal SLIMFAST. Is SLIMFAST safe, (Er--yes, but not because of the laser.)

Unfortunately, where can i buy SLIMFAST online, SLIMFAST schedule, I have light hair and light skin, which is only one half (the light skin) part of the ideal candidate profile for laser treatments, online SLIMFAST without a prescription. SLIMFAST without a prescription, While it definitely helped somewhat (I was fairly quickly able to stop wearing heavy foundation and switch to tinted moisturizer), laser was never going to be the final answer for me, order SLIMFAST from mexican pharmacy. What is SLIMFAST, So two years ago, after I had started hormones, where to buy SLIMFAST, SLIMFAST no prescription, I began getting electrolysis.

Ducks, you need to know this: I am a wimp about pain, SLIMFAST brand name. BUY SLIMFAST NO PRESCRIPTION, Sure, I can take it when I need to, but in general I try to minimize it as much as possible. And since I also had the disposable income, I decided to go to Electrology 3000, in Dallas. I chose them not only because they are really good at hair removal, but because uniquely amongst electolyisists in North America, they use anesthetic during the sessions. That is, they inject your face with lidocaine.

This has a lot of advantages--since you have to let your hairs grow (so they can tell which ones are active) for several days, there's an advantage to having your whole face cleared in a single day, something not really possible without anesthetic. (I've felt electrolysis without the lidocaine--not something you'd want to sit through for a couple of hours.)

The problem is, the lidocaine hurts: it gets injected at a shallow angle, multiple times, and it burns like acid under the skin. Sure, it's just for a few minutes, but those few minutes are pretty hellish--I cried the first time.

I still think it's worth it, BUY SLIMFAST NO PRESCRIPTION. Not because I couldn't be a woman with some facial hair; I've known plenty of women like that. No, it's worth it because of what it does for me--because shaving was the most masculine thing I did every day; because the things I had to do to cover up my beard were so frustrating and annoying, and such a reminder of who I wasn't; and because stubble is one of the things that remind me most of who I was.

So I keep coming. After a while, the lidocaine gets hurts less. And so does my past.




Categories: all about me, gender oh eff me, let's hear it for the ladies

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I went to my first bridal shower on Saturday. RYTHMOL alternatives, At least, my first one as a woman; I seem to recall showing up to my fiancee's shower back in the Pona Time before I transitioned.

Like a lot of women, I suspect, order RYTHMOL from United States pharmacy, the prospect filled me with emotions, Online buying RYTHMOL, most along the lines of "do I have to do this?"

Not initially, though.

I found out that my friend Joanna was going to have a shower when I called her from Thailand, a few days before I left for home, RYTHMOL pics. My friend/lackey/McDonald's wallah had returned to the States, RYTHMOL australia, uk, us, usa, and I finally decided to spend a small fortune and use my cell phone to call folks at home. Joanna was one of the first I called; we've known each other since high school, albeit with a nine-year interregnum between graduation and accidentally running into each other in a grocery store.

I wasn't expecting her to have a shower; she isn't having a bridal party (dashing my last, RYTHMOL mg, best hopes of being a bridesmaid; oh well), Buy RYTHMOL without a prescription, but her mom wanted to throw her one and she gave in. I was simultaneously glad to hear that she was having one and bracing myself to not be invited.

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I was very touched, because I felt so--well, accepted, RYTHMOL FOR SALE. Not so much by Joanna, who's always been supportive and morphed from friend to closet girlfriend with ease, RYTHMOL blogs. But it meant a lot to me that she was willing to bring me into such an intimate family occasion, RYTHMOL over the counter, especially one as highly gendered as a bridal shower.

That feeling lasted a few weeks. Then the dread set in.

Events like this play merry hell with my insecurities. It's times like these when I feel most acutely my lack of a girlhood, after RYTHMOL, the huge gaps in my socialization into ordinary female society. RYTHMOL FOR SALE, Normally, that doesn't bother me: after all, I'm not exactly unhappy that nobody told me I shouldn't study military history, or challenge my teachers, or be bad at math. RYTHMOL dosage, (I took care of the last one all by myself, ducks.) But times like these, so encrusted with (ok, no prescription RYTHMOL online, stupid) tradition and drenched in (ok, Buy RYTHMOL from mexico, ridiculous) mores--these leave me feeling exposed.

Or worse, leave me fearing that I'll be exposed.

I mean, what am I supposed to bring, RYTHMOL without prescription. What's the etiquette. Discount RYTHMOL, Will I make a huge faux-pas. Sure, I can (and did) ask my mom about this stuff, where can i find RYTHMOL online, but I can't help but feel a little foolish: for not knowing, Japan, craiglist, ebay, overseas, paypal, for needing to ask, for feeling that I needed to ask.

As it turned out, I had no worries, RYTHMOL street price. Most of the people who came already either knew me or knew about me and were all really lovely, RYTHMOL FOR SALE. A few had no idea (as I didn't) what the hell the wishing well was for. Where can i cheapest RYTHMOL online, I had a pretty good time. Except. (You knew there would be an except, RYTHMOL trusted pharmacy reviews, right?)

One of the women was somebody I didn't really know. RYTHMOL FOR SALE, We talked and as it turns out she knew my background, and we had a...well, sure, pleasant...little talk about some of my trans stuff. RYTHMOL natural, But sitting across from us was a woman I had never met before, a nice lady from Oklahoma. And at one point I noticed her listening to me and the other woman talking.

The next time I heard her refer to me, buy RYTHMOL online cod, she used male pronouns.

This sort of thing happens occasionally; my official rule is to give people three screwups before I correct them. Purchase RYTHMOL for sale, But this one put me in a fix: either say something, and draw attention to it, or ignore it and let her think that she was right, order RYTHMOL online overnight delivery no prescription. (But seriously: there weren't any men invited, Buy RYTHMOL from canada, I was wearing a dress, I was wearing high heels for fuck's sake--how do you think I prefer to be addressed?) I let it go that time. But it wasn't fun.

I rode the train home with several women from the shower, RYTHMOL FOR SALE. One of them talked about her boyfriend, RYTHMOL dangers, and we all chimed in with advice and opinions. Buy cheap RYTHMOL, It was the very stereotypically female-gendered end to a very stereotypically female-gendered day.

My head was in a bit of a whirl. Part of my transition has been to finally put some distance between me as a trans person and me as a woman. That is, RYTHMOL pharmacy, after all these years of being trans, RYTHMOL from canadian pharmacy, of having that as the most important part of my life, I really want to try and just be for a while. RYTHMOL FOR SALE, I've done a gradual retreat from trans-only spaces, including a message board where I had been a long-time commentator.

But. I had been out with these other women, all or almost all of whom knew, and it wasn't a big deal; they didn't treat me any different than any of the other women at the party. So maybe I shouldn't worry about it, maybe I shouldn't care who knew and who didn't. Maybe it didn't matter.

But why did that make me feel so bad. Was I trying to be something I thought I had to be. (That worked out so well the last time I tried it.) Would I be happier not having anything trans in my life anymore. And if so, what about this blog, which gives me great pleasure to work on, even as it draws me back deeper into a world I am ambivalent about.

I still haven't figured it out yet. I hope I do. Because being stuck in the twilight zone of genders got old years ago.

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I didn't watch Buffy back when it was on TV--oddly enough, I had seen (and even liked) the movie, buy TAMIFLU from mexico, Discount TAMIFLU, and maybe that kept me away at first; I remembered the film as harmless fluff. By the time I heard that Joss Whedon had taken it in a very different, buy TAMIFLU online no prescription, TAMIFLU from canada, darker, and (as usual) beautifully-characterized direction, where can i order TAMIFLU without prescription, Where to buy TAMIFLU, it was too late to catch up on things and I didn't want to try to come in late. So I missed it, until now.

I'm not one of those trans peeps who regrets not having a girlhood, per se; I know how lousy my adolescence was, and I really don't think having been female would have helped much, BUY TAMIFLU NO PRESCRIPTION. (Or would it, no prescription TAMIFLU online. TAMIFLU overnight, I've become such a different--and better--person since I transitioned, maybe it would have worked out...) But that doesn't keep me from occasionally getting blue about--about the tremendous waste involved with my early life, purchase TAMIFLU, Comprar en línea TAMIFLU, comprar TAMIFLU baratos, the years of being strangled with doubt and confusion, the horrific amount of mental baggage I carried around, TAMIFLU schedule. TAMIFLU treatment, And then too there is the consciousness of not having had a girlhood, of not having had to deal with being a teen ager, TAMIFLU coupon, Real brand TAMIFLU online, of all the ways my history separates me from other women.

Which isn't to say there aren't compensations; I was raised to believe that all things were possible for me, whereas sadly far too many women I know were raised to believe that they could be only those things that were proper, TAMIFLU cost. Low dose TAMIFLU, I might have been drowning in dysphoria, but I was never stifled by sexism, TAMIFLU brand name, Buy TAMIFLU from canada, never silenced by society. BUY TAMIFLU NO PRESCRIPTION, I might have struggled with my assigned role, but it was a lot easier role to deal with than being an adolescent female.

On the other hand, though, try being the boy in sixth grade with a stuffed animal collection that covers his bed. That hill ain't so fun to climb either.

I adore Buffy so far, my TAMIFLU experience. TAMIFLU recreational, I love how the show manages to have empowered female characters, to show the human side of everyone, all without denying the ordinary pressures of adolescent society: Buffy might be a superhuman being with an awesome responsibility, but she worries about being popular; Xander's sly self-deprecation reminds me of someone I used to know (Ahem. It was one way to deal with always being picked on.) And I love Willow, even if she hasn't become a witch yet.

Plus, Joss Whedon's pitch statement--"high school as a horror movie"--pretty much sums up my recollection of those days.

Even so, watching it can't but help stir the pot of my memories--if part of my tranisition has been learning about how unhappy I used to be (without even knowing it), then high school was me at my most miserable--tormented by my strangeness, my awkwardness, and the horrible feelings I had that I feared were at the root of everything. Watching Buffy can lead me to those "if only" moments--if only I knew that I could be a woman, if only I knew how happy it would make me--if only I could have just been born female and avoided all of this pain.

I can't change that. I'm not even sure I would if I could; the person I am today was forged on the anvil of my transness, and I would be a very different person indeed without it. And I like that person, more and more every day.

So I shouldn't regret the past. If only I could.

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Speaking of that trip, I passed through a large swath of Asia during it, order CRESTOR from United States pharmacy, and in honor of the first post I've written at 50 miles per hour, I thought I'd share some impressions of sex roles and segregation I gathered on the way.

Our first stop was Abu Dhabi in the United Arab Emirates. Where can i buy cheapest CRESTOR online, We only were there to transfer flights--if you're flying to India or Thailand, I highly recommend Etihad Airlways; they spare no expense, the planes are comfortable even in coach, and the food was actually good, CRESTOR long term. But even that brief layover gave me a sense of the character of the place, BUY CRESTOR NO PRESCRIPTION. There were women working, but mostly as servers; the salesmen we saw at the various stores were, CRESTOR forum, well, men. Abu Dhabi is a crossroads in the Persian Gulf, so we saw all varieties of dress, kjøpe CRESTOR på nett, köpa CRESTOR online, from full burqas to women in completely Western dress. (The flight attendants on Etihad, CRESTOR street price, though, wore these odd combination pillbox hats and veils.) The bathrooms were a bit different; there was an attendant/chaperone, and they follow the British custom of having full-own rooms with doors instead of stalls.

One definite difference: the metal detectors were sex-segregated, to make sure that you were only touched by someone of the same gender, online buying CRESTOR. (This was to be a recurring theme, we shall see, CRESTOR alternatives, and one that usually left me pretty worried.)

India: Saying anything authoritative about India is an excercise in futility; it's too big, too varied, too everything. BUY CRESTOR NO PRESCRIPTION, Our tour was exclusively in the northern part, so there were more Muslims there than other parts of India; again, there was a lot of variety in how Muslim women dressed, though when we visited the Jammu Mosque in Delhi, I saw quite a few people in burquas.

Indian standards of modesty are different than those found in America: bare bellies are fine (and an artifact of wearing a sari, as I know now--I bought two), but shoulders and knees should be covered. Both my boyfriend and I had to don ceremonial, CRESTOR interactions, wildly-patterned caftans when we visited the Jammu Masjid; once again, the metal detectors and clothing attendants were strictly sex-segragated.

Indian business and commerce are far more completely dominated by men than I was used to. CRESTOR trusted pharmacy reviews, We did meet several businesswomen, but almost exclusively in hotels; in stores, and the various "local craftsman" factories we were taken to by our guides (so we could be browbeat for 20 minutes in the hope of buying a rug/inlaid marble table/block printed cloth--the guide got a commission, of course), CRESTOR blogs, the people who did the talking were always male. As were all our guides; come to think of it, Japan, craiglist, ebay, overseas, paypal, I think all the Indian guides I saw were male, as were a majority of the servers in restaurants.

Plate 1: The Author contemplates that the most beautiful building in the world was built for a dead woman.

Moreover, the quintessential picture of Indian poverty, I am sad to say, cheap CRESTOR, is a woman with her children. While I'm sure I saw some men begging--I certainly saw many, CRESTOR no prescription, many poor people of both sexes; in India, if a space is flat, somebody's living on it--the people who approached us were almost universally women. (On the other hand, the people who tried to sell us overpriced trinkets while we waited on various lines were exclusively male.) Every public bathroom I went to in India had an attendant; I'm not sure if that was always true for my boyfriend, but it was for me, BUY CRESTOR NO PRESCRIPTION. These were very poor women (or heartbreakingly, online CRESTOR without a prescription, little girls) who handed you a napkin to use to wipe yourself in exchange for a small tip; we usually gave them 50 ruppes, around a dollar. Buy CRESTOR online cod, I can't speak with any sure knowledge, but I would hardly be surprised to find that these women were Dalits.

On our way out of Indira Gandhi Airport (the first place I ever saw a traffic jam of luggage carts), we once again were run through sex-segregated metal detectors. These were more elaborate than the ones in Abu Dhabi; you were in a completely screened-off area, CRESTOR over the counter, where you got wanded by the guard. Of the proper sex, CRESTOR pictures, of course.

Perhaps nothing captures the attitudes I encountered in India better than this: I was the one who booked the trip, who paid for it, who had negotiated with the tour company. BUY CRESTOR NO PRESCRIPTION, When we arrived in Delhi, my name was on the card the tour representative held up at the airport exit. Yet when we got in the car--I was sitting right behind the rep--he turned to my boyfriend and said, CRESTOR without prescription, "So, sir, Online buying CRESTOR hcl, is this your first time in India?"

Invisibility and being pushed around by men were the hallmarks of the trip for me.

Cambodia: Once we left India, we noticed a marked change in the presence of women in business--in that we actually saw several. Men still did most of the jobs that involved talking, including guide to foreign tourists, CRESTOR no rx. Like India, my boyfriend was spoken to first and more often.

I have no idea what the rules for the separation of the sexes are in Cambodia, Doses CRESTOR work, but there seemed to be something subtle going on around us: our guide, Mr. K, constantly talked about the pictures of the apsara, effects of CRESTOR, or dancing girls that you see in bas-relief everywhere on the Angkor temples. He was often wistful about it, whispering: "Aspara, BUY CRESTOR NO PRESCRIPTION. Dancing girls. CRESTOR pics, Very beautiful girls." We suspected dating was pretty complicated in Cambodia.

Plate 2: Mr. K wants you to know he feels nothing for these women. Nothing!

Thailand: We passed through Thailand twice, actually: once, buy CRESTOR without a prescription, very briefly, on the way to Siem Reap in Cambodia, Buy generic CRESTOR, and then of course of the Purpose of the Visit. BUY CRESTOR NO PRESCRIPTION, Thailand, least in Bangkok and Suvarnabhumi Airport is huge, and more modern than LAX or Newark Liberty; if not for the presence of signs in Thai, you'd hardly know you weren't in America.

Plate 3: It's like Los Angeles, just with worse traffic.

In Thailand we finally saw something approaching gender equity. Women were firmly entrenched in the workplace, at about the same proportion that you find in America. Men talked to me--sometimes even first!--and women were definitely assertive, CRESTOR steet value, at least to me.

That isn't to say that there wasn't a lot of sexism; there was. Thai (or at least Bangkok) culture has something resembling a mix of 50s-style mores, Buy cheap CRESTOR no rx, plus a thousand years of Buddhism, plus modern capitalistic ruthless. My nurses told me, for example, that it was still considered somewhat risque for women to smoke--I mean, holy Mad Men!

But at least in Thailand (and Cambodia) I could pee by myself; there weren't any bathroom attendants. And the metal detectors were unisex.

This is the face of progress, ducks: a man being wanded by a female security guard.




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  1. Because I shave my legs.
  2. Because I color my hair.
  3. Because I wear skirts.
  4. Because I wear dresses.
  5. Because I wear high heels.
  6. Because I had plastic surgery.
  7. Because I had breast implants.
  8. Because I had vaginoplasty.
  9. Because I am attracted to men.
  10. Because I still am attracted to women.
  11. Because I've read a few books on feminism.
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  13. Because I have a vagina--now.
  14. Because I didn't have a vagina--then.
  15. Because I don't have a cervix.
  16. Because I had a penis.
  17. Because I had male privilege.
  18. Because I had white, male, middle-class privilege.
  19. Because I still have white, middle-class privilege.
  20. Because I wasn't raised as a girl.
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Over time, Monica and I became close friends; I even saw her male self a few times, PRAVACHOL dosage, and later on she got to see mine when I invited her to my birthday. We both agreed that these "parties" were nothing more than an extension of the closet; we deplored together the awful dance music the hostesses played (not that it would have mattered much: it is a curious fact that most of the white, middle-aged CDs I knew didn't like to dance); we longed for something more than the desultory anomie of these Saturday nights, but neither of us was ready yet to try to do anything more.

Not everyone who came to these parties was a crossdresser. Some wives and girlfriends came, PRAVACHOL from canadian pharmacy, whose expressions ran the gamut from pie-eyed terror to exhilarated joy. We always looked at these women with curiousity, scarcely allowing ourselves to believe that it was possible to find a woman who could deal with--with all this, BUY PRAVACHOL NO PRESCRIPTION. There were also the trannie chasers. They were a hard crew to figure out--perhaps because most of them were having a hard time figuring out their own attraction. PRAVACHOL alternatives, Some wanted to crossdress but couldn't face their own fears; some wanted to suck a dick attached to something feminine, to mitigate their attraction to male genitalia; and a few just seemed to be turned on by trans bodies. The greater part of them were very shy, standing with their backs to the wall or the bar, always looking just slightly uncomfortable.

We all looked down on the chasers.

There was one group that we looked up to, buy generic PRAVACHOL, though: the transsexuals. BUY PRAVACHOL NO PRESCRIPTION, Relatively few ever came out to these nights, which somehow made us respect them more--they had done it, they had transitioned and they didn't need an extended closet to be women in. A few did come by, though, PRAVACHOL dose, out of nostalgia, or maladjustment to their new lives; out of friendship for other transgendered people who hadn't transitioned, or out of a need for a safe space as they first began their transitions; out of curiosity or empathy or condescension. They fascinated us. These were people that were more than just women for the weekend; they were women period now, where can i cheapest PRAVACHOL online, and their stories haunted and attracted us.

For a lot of crossdressers, the idea of transition is something that you never really ever let go of. I think this may be because as a transgendered person, PRAVACHOL for sale, you want to be the opposite sex, even if it is only for a little while; so to deny that you would want to transition is to deny that you want to be a woman, which is what you really do want to do. It's all highly confusing, and I think that was one of the reasons we sought out transsexuals: to find our boundaries, to compare stories and see where they were different, to listen to the struggles they had undergone in order to transition and silently do a secret accounting of our own lives and wonder if the price we'd pay would actually be worth it in the end.

But we were told--or at least we had heard--that there were real differences between crossdressers and transsexuals; that crossdressers never transitioned, that transsexuals were in such pain from their gender inconsonance that they had no other choice but to transition, BUY PRAVACHOL NO PRESCRIPTION. And we believed those stories, crossdressers and transsexuals alike; we crossdressers told our wives and girlfriends that we weren't destined to transition, buy no prescription PRAVACHOL online, and transsexuals told the world that they weren't just men who liked to wear women's clothing.

There was one transsexual who was a regular. I didn't really know why Ingrid kept coming (and after a while, she just didn't), PRAVACHOL from canada, but I guess she fit into the category of people who were starting transition and needed a place to get their bearings. We were friendly, and used to talk politics and Japanese martial arts and the American songbook--she had a lovely voice and sometimes would sing a few bars of Cole Porter.

One thing about Ingrid did bother me, though: she didn't like Monica. Or rather, buy cheap PRAVACHOL, she thought she was a mess, directionless, and misguided. BUY PRAVACHOL NO PRESCRIPTION, Now, truth be told, Monica's hairstyle was out of the Marilyn Quayle school of immobility, her clothing choices were pretty drab and uninspired, and her shoes--well, it's best not to talk about them. Where can i buy PRAVACHOL online, I had myself recently graduated from my evening-wear phase, when I would wear gowns and formal dresses out to bars and had started to dress in a fashion that I thought a woman of my age might dress. So that gave me license to be a bit of a snob, and I am ashamed to say that sometimes I snarked right along with Ingrid.

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Wearing pants was even somehow better than wearing a skirt--because real women didn't wear skirts all the time. (Neither do crossdressers in their everyday lives, PRAVACHOL pictures, but making that point hardly helped their case.) In fact, it was a bitter joke amongst us that if you started to show up wearing pants, it meant you were bound to eventually transition.

If I would sometimes put Monica down, Taking PRAVACHOL, I also defended her; I would point out that she was one of the sweetest, kindest people I knew, and that went a lot further with me than her fashion sense; and in any case, the more she came out, the better she looked, PRAVACHOL dangers. But no matter; Ingrid thought she was a hopeless case, and Ingrid was a woman of firmly-held convictions.

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It's been a long time since I was a regular in that world, and I've learned quite a bit since then. One thing that I learned is that I wanted to transition, that the bright lines I had drawn were a lie; crossdressers really did transition. BUY PRAVACHOL NO PRESCRIPTION, That led me to question other things, to wonder if being a transsexual actually made you more real; or was it that, crossdressers were perfectly real crossdressers. And that somehow, order PRAVACHOL online c.o.d, that wasn't wrong or something to put people down about. On one of my last trips out to one of these parties, I was sitting at the bar, PRAVACHOL online cod, silently smirking at this or that poorly-done outfit, when an elderly crossdresser came in. Her dress looked terrible on her, her lipstick was as crooked as a Vermont dirt road, and her wig was haphazardly clinging to the top of her head, PRAVACHOL long term. But when I looked more closely, I could see the pure joy in her eyes, the incredible relief at being able to finally express this part of herself. And my smirk died a cold death on my face and I--I in my careful makeup and fashionable clothes--I was ashamed.

Since then I've learned much more about feminism and power structures; I see now that what we saw as realness was nothing else than judging people on their looks; that people have the right to define their own gender/personality/womanhood however they want to, and that makes it as real as anyone else's, BUY PRAVACHOL NO PRESCRIPTION. PRAVACHOL samples, I learned, too, how often it is in underprivileged communities that heirarchies arise, tiny parodies of the larger, oppressive order, PRAVACHOL canada, mexico, india. I learned that trans people were hardly alone in equating realness with authenticity; everywhere I looked among the various underprivileged communities I encountered--female, feminist, people of color--I saw the same pattern of holding other members of your group up to your own personal ideal, Buying PRAVACHOL online over the counter, and then calling them out on how far they fell short of it. People complained about it; long and bitter struggles took place with each faction trying to prove their authenticity to each other. And yet the patterns persisted, over and over and over again.

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I ran into Ingrid about a year later at a Julia Serrano reading. Purchase PRAVACHOL online no prescription, By that point I was well into my own transition; in fact, outside of onsite visits to my clients, I presented as female all the time. Ingrid, on the other hand, seemed to be much as I had last known her; she was presenting as male that day, which surprised me--it had been five years since I'd seen her last, I thought she'd have gone fulltime by then.

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Despite our internecine conflicts, PRAVACHOL dosage, we still manage to gain a victory and then all of us move forward: sissies can get married just the same as the straightest-acting modern Mattachinist; the woman who clutched her pearls until her hands bled got to vote the same as a bloomers-wearing suffragist; and maybe, just maybe, one day crossdressers and transsexuals will both be able to pee in peace.

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