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In fact, Online buying Gestanin, there's almost a week of time that I have very little recollection of--the five days I had to stay immobile in bed, according to my surgeon's regimen. Not everyone does this; had I gone to the Canadian surgeon I first considered, Gestanin in cats, dogs, children, I'd have been up and walking around after about a day or so. Acheter en ligne Gestanin, acheter Gestanin bon marché, Everybody does things differently. But I'm somewhat glad for being immobile; during that five days I only moved once, and that was because I'd thrown up on myself the first day after my surgery--juice boxes and opiates don't agree all that well, BUY Gestanin ONLINE NO PRESCRIPTION. The only way to get me clean sheets was to move me to an entirely new bed. Which meant I had to crab walk over to it, Boston, Massachusetts. Charlotte, Carolina. Now, Fort Worth, Texas. Denver, Colorado, even under normal circumstances, that would be both uncomfortable and ungraceful; but I had to not only contend with the pain from my brand-new down there, with the attendant catheter and surgical drains, Indianapolis, Indiana, San Francisco, California, but since I'd also opted to have my boobs done at the same time, Gestanin 250mg, I could barely move my arms; the surgeon went in under my armpits, and to be honest that pain was more omnipresent and inconveniencing than the other.

But other than that, and my SOOVAOFG saying goodbye to me to fly home--we'd spent ten days together bumping around India and Cambodia prior to my surgery, Gestanin over the counter, and vacation time is precious nowadays--I really don't remember much. Buy Gestanin no prescription, I slept a lot; I was too out of it to even watch TV. BUY Gestanin ONLINE NO PRESCRIPTION, Every so often, they'd bring me a thick creamy soup and some juice boxes to eat and drink. I rarely ate the soup, but I drank the juice, Gestanin withdrawal. (As an aside, Gestanin coupon, Thai sweets of all kinds tend to be sweeter than American sweets--probably because they use real sugar.) I've come to realize that it wasn't so much that I was drugged out of my head--Thais don't practice American pain management, and I didn't even have a morphine drip--but because nothing changed. There was me; my bed; my room with the blinds drawn; and the occasional ministrations of kind Thai nurses who spoke little English, comprar en línea Gestanin, comprar Gestanin baratos. (My Thai was suspect at its best and no match for my pain and grogginess.)

But eventually they packed me up and sent me home, Gestanin 1000mg, 2000mg, after giving me a huge, cumbersome, old-fashioned bra, where can i buy cheapest Gestanin online. It was trimmed with lace and looked like something from the "18-hour bra" commercials I'd seen as a kid, BUY Gestanin ONLINE NO PRESCRIPTION. And then I was dumped back in my hotel room, Gestanin price, just me and my catheter bag--they didn't take the catheter out until the next day, which was a little scary and gross. On the other hand, buy Gestanin online cod, it was pretty convenient for lying in bed and drinking stuff, 0.4mg, 0.5mg, 1mg, 2.5mg, which was about all I was up for.

But it's surprising how quickly you can heal. I was moving around the hotel room that, night, buy Gestanin from canada, had enough energy to make breakfast the next day, Buy cheap Gestanin, and even hosted a pizza party for some of the other patients of my surgeon a day or so after that. (We had a couple of these affairs. BUY Gestanin ONLINE NO PRESCRIPTION, They were interesting; we'd have a great time for about an hour, and then everyone would be in too much pain to continue. But they were fun while they lasted.)

That was all a year ago.

Things have changed, Gestanin 500mg. For one thing, Order Gestanin from mexican pharmacy, I now only have to dilate once a day for about 30 minutes. That will mean I can actually get up at the same time but still get to work earlier, which will help me have more time and energy to write in the evening, Gestanin from canadian pharmacy. I've had sex, Order Gestanin no prescription, by which I mean--this being America and all--PIV sex, so now I know how much I've been missing. My recovery has been remarkably hassle free, even with the UTI I developed a month after getting home.

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BUY Gestanin ONLINE NO PRESCRIPTION, And I felt that way before. I am not going to play pussy politics with you and engage in zero-sum games about the proper anatomy a woman needs. It's reductive, buy Gestanin without prescription, and cruel, San Diego, California. Dallas, Texas. San Antonio, Texas, and ignores the economic reality of far too many trans women.

But there's no question that I like myself better this way, that I feel a peace with my body I never felt before. That I had to wound myself to heal.

Not that I'm completely healed, Gestanin 200mg. None of us, El Paso, Texas. Washington, D.C. Seattle, Washington, I suppose, ever really can be--and I'm not just talking about trans people. If we measure lives by ideals, then we're all a little broken, all in need of some kind of healing, BUY Gestanin ONLINE NO PRESCRIPTION. And I've come so very far.

But there are still times when I resent that passage; when I resent all the things that were taken from me, canada, mexico, india, all the things that I never had--even the bad things, even the things that in a sense I was fortunate enough to miss: if I feel the omnipresent judgment of every damn TV commercial on how I should look, act, think, and feel simply because of my gender, can I really long to have had that drummed into my head from the moment it poked into our world. Do I really feel sorry for myself for not having spent three and a half decades as a victim of sexism?

No. Not really. But I do regret the necessity of it all, the long slow struggle to find out who I am, the summoning up of awful reserves of energy just to survive each day, and then the ultimate effort to make myself into the person I desperately needed to be. And so I regret BUY Gestanin ONLINE NO PRESCRIPTION, that passage; but I am grateful, oh so very grateful, to have survived it.

And you could say, maybe, that my vagina is a symbol of that: a physical manifestation of not just my womanhood, but my struggle to achieve that womanhood, a signpost showing how far I've come and how much I had to undergo to reach it. I suppose that would be fine; I'd hardly be the first woman to eulogize my vagina, and I doubt I'll be the last, cis or trans.

But I don't really do that much. Because most of the time it's just a vagina. And believe me, that is more than enough. In fact, it's perfect.

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30 September 2009

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BUY Slimfast ONLINE NO PRESCRIPTION, My last three days in Paris, I went to museums twice; since on Tuesdays most of the museums are closed, I stayed in and worked that day. (Pity, it was another beautiful day--but at least I went out and had some Senegalese food that night, canada, mexico, india. Chicken Yassa is incredibly yummy!)

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But you knew that already; heck, it's really not even fair: I always find privilege.

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BUY Zithromax ONLINE NO PRESCRIPTION, Bon jour, mes canards. Paris may be a fading memory, Baltimore, Maryland. Milwaukee, Wisconsin, Zithromax 50mg, but I will try and catch you up on the last few days of the Cahiers Parisiens.

Maybe it didn't come through, but I didn't talk much with people while I was in Paris, buy no prescription Zithromax online. Zithromax withdrawal, This is not that unusual. I work either from home or at a desk marooned at the other end of the floor from everyone else; I don't often go out to bars either home or in Europe; and in general, buy Zithromax without prescription, San Diego, California. Dallas, Texas. San Antonio, Texas, I am a misanthropic sour puss. This helps out in the writing game, Zithromax snort, alcohol iteraction, 0.4mg, 0.5mg, 1mg, 2.5mg, but isn't so much use in other places.

But...well, the last few days in Paris I actually had some interactions with people.

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After brunch I walked over towards Buttes Chaumont park, buy Zithromax no prescription, Oklahoma City, Oklahoma. Las Vegas, Nevada, one of the gems of non-tourist Paris, a magnificent landscape of hills, where can i buy Zithromax online, Købe Zithromax online, αγοράζουν online Zithromax, crags, and a lovely lake, rx free Zithromax. Here's a picture of the grotto in the center of the park: BUY Zithromax ONLINE NO PRESCRIPTION, However, on the way over to the park, I had my first experience with...Latin lovers.

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And oh. On Monday, I went to pay my respects at the Louvre (you have to see the Mona Lisa while you're in Paris...you just do.) And as I was walking to the Metro, another guy wanted to "make my acquaintance." This time I just said I didn't speak French.

But the best story has to be when I was walking home from the Louvre on Monday. BUY Zithromax ONLINE NO PRESCRIPTION, I passed a store I had previously seen, and just had to snap a pic, because...well, because the sign is a rather weak joke:

The name of the store is Les Bonnes Compines which in French means something approximately like "The Good Girlfriends." Fair enough...but it's written with out the space between Les and Bonnes, making it look a bit like...something else in English.

As I said, a weak joke. I'm not proud

Like most of the stores in that region of Paris, it's a wholesaler--I had basically landed in the Parisian garment district, with "Ne vente pas au detail" (wholesale only) in almost every window. And for some reason, when I took the pic, a woman in a telephone booth (yes, they still have them there) started to scream at me.

I couldn't follow everything she said, but it was mostly about how I shouldn't take a pic. I tried to explain, but only got as far as Parce que...("because...") before she started to scream again. She even spit on the ground. Eventually I just walked away...I guess she thought I was some sort of corporate spy or something.

Shows what you get for acting like a tourist; I should know better.

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Saturday I had a real treat...well, Nizoral 5mg, Buy Nizoral online cod, not an unproblematic treat. But you've probably come to expect that of me, purchase Nizoral online no prescription. Purchase Nizoral online, I went to the Musée Guimet, over by the Trocadero, Nizoral for sale. This is the main Asian art museum in Paris, BUY Nizoral ONLINE NO PRESCRIPTION. Philadelphia, Pennsylvania. Phoenix, Arizona, I didn't go straight there, acutally: I had a large lunch nearby first, order Nizoral online overnight delivery no prescription, Nizoral from canadian pharmacy, which included a desert of profiteroles--cream puffs stuffed with vanilla ice cream and drenched in chocolate sause--my favorite desert in the world, and something that it is almost impossible to get (at least, Nizoral 100mg, Oklahoma City, Oklahoma. Las Vegas, Nevada, impossible to get done right) back in the states:

Anyway, the museum really has an excellent collection, buy generic Nizoral, Reasons to buy Nizoral online, from all parts of Asia. The India collection was quite good; and as someone that has been interested in Shiva since my days researching Indian mythology, buy Nizoral online no prescription, I was happy to see this marvelous bronze of Shiva Nataraja, the Lord of the Dance:

They have an excellent Cambodian section. As I've been to Cambodia this year, it was quite pleasant at first to reacquaint myself with the amazing and monumental Khmer art--to see one of the gently smiling, inexplicable faces of the Bayon silently contemplating me again, to look at a marvelously preserved naga, to see a beautiful bas-relief apsara.

But something began to bother me. When I would read the labels to see where these things came from, I began to feel...uncomfortable. That's because I've actually been BUY Nizoral ONLINE NO PRESCRIPTION, to those places; I've seen the elephant terrace, the royal palace, the Bayon of Angkor Thom. And given that Cambodia was a French colony for ninety years, I thought it was a pretty good bet that they didn't ask if they could take any of those things.

This isn't a new issue, of course: the Louvre has the best egyptology collection outside of Egypt, because of Napoleon's conquests there; the British plundered the Greek world to build their amazing collections; even within Europe itself museum collections are often the plunder of war.

Still, the enormous gap of wealth, privilege and power between the colonial nations of the nineteenth century and the countries they subjugated seems to lend an air of disquietude that doesn't linger over the internecine push and shove of Europe's long shabby history of warfare. Because they essentially stole these things from people who found it difficult or impossible to resist. Stole, and left no recompense, and often no regrets. Even the great humanist Andre Malraux got into the act, trying to steal artifacts and whole bas-reliefs from the newly-rediscovered and beautifully-preserved Banteay Srei in Cambodia.

Of course, it's nice that people in other places in the world can see these things, and it's good to have some of them safe in a museum--the Angkor artifacts suffered during the reign of the Khmer Rouge. But that still doesn't make up for the crime of taking them in the first place. I mean...they could have just asked.

In any case, maybe it's appropriate that this guy, donated by the women of the United States in the memory of Lafayette, should be right outside the museum:

(Yeah, that's good ol' George himself.).

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18 September 2009

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Paris, of course, has an uncomfortable relationship with the modern world. It retains it's preeminent place in the world of fashion, Where can i buy cheapest Zebeta online, is a major political and business center for Europe, and remains the center of gravity of the francophone world. And, kjøpe Zebeta online, bestill Zebeta online, of course, Indianapolis, Indiana, San Francisco, California, it is one of the most beautiful cities in Europe.

But so much of that comes from its curious sense of being frozen in time: the perfection of the nineteenth-century vision of Good City Life, the architecture frozen in place, the parks looking almost identitical to the images on the canvases of the Musée d'Orsay, order Zebeta from mexican pharmacy. It's static the way New York, Zebeta over the counter, my other favorite city in the world, never is: New York reinvents itself every day, in a furious pace of rebuilding, Zebeta 75mg, modifying, Australia, uk, us, usa, reconsidering, reconfiguring. Paris sedately glides by, Zebeta 150mg, asleep in the long belle rêve of Haussman.

Sometimes I think only Paris' status as the capital of a major country in Europe keeps it a living city. That, and the changing face of the French world.

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Out here, Detroit, Michigan, San Jose, California, not quite in the periphery (let alone the banlieues, the suburbs that ring Paris), I still see more people of color than you do in central Paris, where can i order Zebeta without prescription, tourist Paris: Africans and Berbers from the old colonies, El Paso, Texas. Washington, D.C. Seattle, Washington, Indians, Vietnamese, Chinese, købe Zebeta online, αγοράζουν online Zebeta, Arabs. Jacksonville, Florida, Columbus, Ohio, It makes me homesick and feel at home at the same time, resembling my ethnically mixed neighborhood in the Great American Metropolis. (Also a rapidly gentrifying area with great restaurants.)

I won't rehearse for you the litany of troubles the changing population of France has brought on: the difficulties in assimilating different ethnicities into the French self-conception, Zebeta 125mg, the poverty and racism and rioting in the banlieues, New York. Los Angeles, California, the fact that the President of France once threatened retributary violence on those same rioters, before he was elected. BUY Zebeta ONLINE NO PRESCRIPTION, France bans the veil at school, championing the cause of secularism and human rights, and we are left with profoundly mixed feelings about exactly what liberties are being abridged, and who has the right to do that. Etre Muslulman en France, buy Zebeta without prescription, screams the headline of one magazine I see advertised: being Muslim in France. Zebeta pharmacy, What is it like, I, they, buy Zebeta from canada, wonder, Buy Zebeta from mexico, to be marooned in a culture that regards you cautiously, obliged to help you because of the mythic ideals of its own past, but not sure how to come to terms with being more than it was in the past: plural, Zebeta coupon, multiple, 0.4mg, 0.5mg, 1mg, 2.5mg, different. How it is to be Other until that happens, if it ever does.

I could claim some parcel of this terrain, canada, mexico, india, as both a woman and trans, Zebeta price, but I really doubt it's the same: here, as in America, the swath my privilege as a white, farmacia Zebeta baratos, Zebeta online kaufen, able-bodied, Zebeta withdrawal, educated person cuts through most hindrances.

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Which is the best way to learn, actually. But in those moments...I was the other, online buy Zebeta without a prescription. I was the one lost in a sea of incomprehension, Boston, Massachusetts. Charlotte, Carolina, struggling to use all my wits to figure things out, almost mute, ignorent. (There are times I grow so frustrated with how I speak, because my mind leaps so far out in front of what I actually know how to say: and I know I must sound stupid, with my mangled syntax and wonky accent.) And this is a valuable lesson to learn, to hold to myself the next time I get frustrated with someone else.

We never learn more about our privilege than when we are called on it. Or made to see the other side of it.

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However, my appreciation for this fact was kinda mitigate by my next observation...

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So that takes me back to French puns.

One of the things you say in French when you are introduced to someone is Ravissante à faire vôtre conaissance. Now, ravissante means ravished; and in French, this is basically only used in the way we use the English word ravishing, that is, beautiful.

But it comes from the same roots and same sense as ravished in English: to take, to carry off...to rape.

So that's why I flipped it around in my post title, one translation of which might be: "to meet you, I am ravished."

I don't mean to say that in French you say that you're raped when you meet people. That's not what it means anymore. But it is an artifact of how rape, how the principles of rape--that a woman's body belongs not to her, but the men who look at her, who can take her--pervades every corner of our culture. You can see it art; you can hear it in language; you can feel it in the way men look at you, or in the long lists that people send you telling you how you can avoid being assaulted--because assault is an implacable force of nature, not the acts of people with the moral capacity to make decisions.

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Indian standards of modesty are different than those found in America: bare bellies are fine (and an artifact of wearing a sari, as I know now--I bought two), but shoulders and knees should be covered. Both my boyfriend and I had to don ceremonial, wildly-patterned caftans when we visited the Jammu Masjid; once again, San Diego, California. Dallas, Texas. San Antonio, Texas, the metal detectors and clothing attendants were strictly sex-segragated.

Indian business and commerce are far more completely dominated by men than I was used to. Buy cheap Plan B, We did meet several businesswomen, but almost exclusively in hotels; in stores, and the various "local craftsman" factories we were taken to by our guides (so we could be browbeat for 20 minutes in the hope of buying a rug/inlaid marble table/block printed cloth--the guide got a commission, canada, mexico, india, of course), Buy Plan B without prescription, the people who did the talking were always male. As were all our guides; come to think of it, I think all the Indian guides I saw were male, Plan B 250mg, as were a majority of the servers in restaurants.

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I have no idea what the rules for the separation of the sexes are in Cambodia, but there seemed to be something subtle going on around us: our guide, Mr. K, constantly talked about the pictures of the apsara, or dancing girls that you see in bas-relief everywhere on the Angkor temples. He was often wistful about it, whispering: "Aspara, BUY Plan B ONLINE NO PRESCRIPTION. Dancing girls. Very beautiful girls." We suspected dating was pretty complicated in Cambodia.

Plate 2: Mr. K wants you to know he feels nothing for these women. Nothing!

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In Thailand we finally saw something approaching gender equity. Women were firmly entrenched in the workplace, at about the same proportion that you find in America. Men talked to me--sometimes even first!--and women were definitely assertive, at least to me.

That isn't to say that there wasn't a lot of sexism; there was. Thai (or at least Bangkok) culture has something resembling a mix of 50s-style mores, plus a thousand years of Buddhism, plus modern capitalistic ruthless. My nurses told me, for example, that it was still considered somewhat risque for women to smoke--I mean, holy Mad Men!

But at least in Thailand (and Cambodia) I could pee by myself; there weren't any bathroom attendants. And the metal detectors were unisex.

This is the face of progress, ducks: a man being wanded by a female security guard.