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The Balcony Is Closed

Categories: media tool kit, the male ogle, your rda of misogyny

You probably think your humble blogeuse never does anything but write proposals and gather outrage for her next post. On the contrary! Like many denizens of A Great American Metropolis, I occasionally venture out of the apartment to do–stuff. Like eat Chinese food! Or go to movies!

On Friday I went out to see a festival of independent short films. (For independent read student.) Normally, an evening screening films is a pleasure to me–why, I’ve even sat through Robert Altman double-features and left feeling elated. (Confused and strangely unconfined by narrative, but elated.) But last night set my teeth on edge, because I saw a strong thread running through all the films, none of which, I should mention, were directed by women. What could that thread be? Read on to find out! (But, as Sady would say, Hint: THE MISOGYNY.)

Yes, I’m afraid that most of these films were either lady absent or lady silencing or, everybody’s favorite, lady objectifying. Not all the films–for example, there was a cute little Canadian Star Trek parody that was not only funny, but had a woman in it–a woman with actual lines! (This lovely young woman, incidentally, was the only woman in the entire evening’s show that had a direct line of dialogue.) There was a disturbing yet amusing time travel movie that definitely broke new ground in the genre. And there was an amusingly dark animated short about the perils of the workplace.

The rest though, primed me to gun up the outrage engines. There were two films that were montages of film clips that were cleverly edited but didn’t seem to have a real point of view. “The Control Master” was definitely a technical feat–the animation was taken from clip art advertising from the ’50s–but began with the villain stalking the heroine and turning her into a dog. Lovely. The last film before the intermission was a mash-up of video games and afternoon cartoon shows like “She-Ra” that had one good sight gag–the invaders from space were, well, Space Invaders–but mostly seemed to be an excuse to film a heroine in her panties, from behind. Oh, and the reason she and the villain are fighting is because she messed around on him (even if he is a giant cube.)

The film that really set me off, though, was “Funny Guy.” The premise began amusingly enough–a guy telling horribly bad jokes to his bathroom mirror–and our realization that he is a very disturbed young man is–disturbing. So, a good start, if not exactly the most original place to go.

It’s where director Frank Rinaldi takes this that provoked my strong reaction. It turns out that our disturbed young man wants to talk to a prostitute who hangs out across a highway from him, but is too shy. (This is the only woman in the entire film–a prostitute with no lines. Sigh.) He later chases the girl down to confront her, tracks down one of her johns and gets into a confrontation with him, and then later ambushes the john and takes him back to his bathroom. The filmaking in this sequence is tense–we sense imminent violence, especially when our abductor reveals the hideous black fungus (a metaphor for his own disease?) growing on the shower stall walls–with a human ear embedded in it.

Yet this scene deflates, and we next see abductor and abductee share a moment sniffing paint thinner. The john agrees to try and get the woman to talk to his abductor, but when he shyly hides from them the john takes off with her.

The film is disturbing all right, but what disturbed me was that it was ultimately another piece of stalker porn; that once again I had to watch a misunderstood guy who goes nuts and finds the only way to connect to women is to hunt them down. His rage over her “rejection” of him–that seems to be the way he interprets her going off with the other john–echoes nothing but the normal sense of entitlement to women’s bodies that most men feel.

The movie isn’t bad, per se–technically, it’s an accomplished student film. I’m just annoyed that these techniques are put in the service of yet another story where women are stalked, fought over, shared between men, and ultimately purely adjuncts to the plot–a motivating factor, a force of nature, incapable of speaking or acting in their own defence (it’s telling that she’s a prostitute, and thus not even allowed to choose her own sexual partners.) I spoke to the director after the movie–it turns out, ducks, that he was sitting right in front of me–and talked to him about my concerns. (No blood was shed.)

I expect a little misogyny when I go to the movies, because I expect a little misogyny when I step out of my apartment, turn on the tv, or read the newspaper. There are even great films which are profoundly misogynistic–for example, “Taxi Driver.” Scocese’s misanthropic and misogynistic gem from 1976–made at a time when he was battling a cocaine addiction, going through a horrific divorce, and basically “hated women”–remains a tough film to watch. Yet the women in that film–idealized, paternalized, and ultimately hated by DeNiro’s Travis Bickle–retain their own agency–they are people, and make choices. “Taxi Driver’s” awful force of misogyny is only part of its awful force, period–although it is women who inspire Travis’ acts of violence, it’s also clear that these actions are only possible because of a deeper instability in his character.

It might be a lot to ask a student director to approach the skill of a Scorsese; but on the other hand, it’s thirty-three years later, and not exactly difficult to learn about how women feel about, well, anything. That it remains true that the easiest way to give a disturbed character motivation is to have him rejected by a woman is yet another depressing indication of the institutionalized misogyny of your liberal media.

And it’s sad that in a city as liberal and progressive as A Great American Metropolis that the only way to ensure that you will see an independent film directed by a woman is to go to a woman’s film festival.

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Annie Get Your…

Categories: let's hear it for the ladies, media tool kit

Randy Cohen, who writes the “Ethicist” column for the NY Times, has a modest proposal: keep men from openly carrying guns as we do today (in most places, ducks, in most places) but require women to carry them. It’s mostly facetious, but he does touch on the usual statistics: 90% of all gun violence is committed by men, and strangely (but rightly) hits on Susan Faludi’s observation (without referencing her, though) that occupations once considered high-status when dominated by men (secretary, frex) become low-status when dominated by women. (Ah, that’s the answer to the American epidemic of gun violence: sexism! The cause of, and solution to, all of life’s problems!)

The comments are more interesting. The old canard (ahem) about guns solving the problems of 2,00,000 violent crimes. (Really? Think it’s that easy to shoot someone? See, for example, this, as well as S.L.A Marshall’s contention that only 25% of soldiers fired their weapons during WWII.) A surprising number of women write about their experiences owning weapons. One woman hopes that this will lead to guns in designer colors. Then there’s this charming passage:

Before you recommend to arm all womyn and unleash them on mankind please remember the import of the following two words:

Premenstrual Syndrome (PMS).

Ya know, folks, I happen to have pretty first-hand experience in the differences between male and female hormones, even if I don’t and won’t ever cycle. But given the disparity between male and female violent crimes, given how often men come to blows over minor disagreements (I saw two guys nearly get into a fight just yesterday–in the middle of the sidewalk. At 9 AM.), given how the culture of masculinity celebrates testosterone-soaked rage–why is it always women who are supposed to have the hormone problem? Don’t they also say that women are better at social networking? Shouldn’t we be telling guys to stay out of politics because their brains just can’t deal with the complexities of international diplomacy? Shouldn’t we tut-tut men for getting into a fight over who was the better hitter in 1939 by saying that they shouldn’t let their hormones get the better of them?

Yeah, probably we should. If arming women helps to bring that about–well, Mr. Cohen, sign me up.

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31 Days Later….

Categories: all about me, milestones, teh tranz, why i blog

Greetings, Ducks! Today, it turns out, is the one-monthery (strictly speaking, an anniversary refers to a year. Yes, I took Latin! Yes, I am a shameless pedant!) of this blog. Which I seem to have celebrated by taking the day off (well, to be fair, that proposal I wrote the other day blossomed into further proposals and some discussions with the potential client, so I was busy.)

I want to thank all of you who have dropped by, and especially all of you who left such nice comments here. Starting a blog again was something that I did with some trepidation, and your encouragement has really been so lovely.

I had trepidation because part of my “process” (no, thank you, Anonymous!) is figuring out exactly how much my transness is going to be integrated with the rest of my life, and starting a blog where I was so open about it (albeit with personal details obscured) seemed to have the potential to swallow my life up again. After so, so many years where my transness was a constant, overriding distraction to my life, I really wanted to just try being a woman for a while.

But it’s clear that I have things to say about transness, and especially about how transness intersects with feminism. So I say them here, and so far it hasn’t consumed me–in fact, it’s acted as a safety valve, letting me work on living a life not always dominated by where I’ve come from, but by where I’m going.

So thank you all for dropping by, for your encouragement and support, for giving me a reason to write every day–something I thought I might never do again. And here’s to the start of our second month!

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Don’t Scream

Categories: (un)popular entertainment, media tool kit, rape is hy-larious

Good morning, ducks! Let me ask you–do you like to see women in stark screaming terror and in fear of imminent death? Or at least simulations of such? Well, the New York Daily News does! Today they put up a gallery of “screaming starlets” from nineteen separate horror movies! It’s one stop shopping for all your terror porn!

As a film buff, I’ve watched my fair share of horror films. The vast majority boil down to either stalker or torture porn, of course, with tons of women in various stages of undress being voyeuristically hunted down. Even if the trend lately is towards making the woman the hero, letting her ultimately triumph (for example, the American remake of The Ring or the original Halloween), you can be sure that she’ll first go through a degradation that no male hero would be forced to undergo. This is true of even the best of the bunch, such as the Scream franchise, which featured a woman hero who was easily the most capable character in all the films, or the solid-B movie The Descent, which at least featured a main cast of women who did things (like whitewater rafting, caving, and fending off cannibalistic subhuman cave dwellers), even if it did find room for the death of a child, a murderous catfight, and the heroine killing a mother and child–your basic smorgasbord of Hollywood misogyny.

I’m really baffled by why the News thought this was a good idea, though of course not surprised. We do live, as Liss McEwan put it yesterday, “in a rape-soaked culture” so I guess putting images of anguished women shrieking in terror on your web site is just giving the public what it wants.

Besides, it’s not like you can have photographs of naked women in your newspaper. I mean, this is America.

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Fine Feathered Foul?

Categories: all about me, mailbag

Hello, du…hmm. I nearly used the common English word for a member of the family anatidae. Which, it seems, would be wrong, at least according to Anonymous:

Here’s the deal: gay men call people ducks; women do not. Consider it part of the process to remove that word from your vocabulary. Please.

Now, I got defensive when I first read this, but then I thought: hey, maybe Anonymous has a point; I mean, I’ve gotten all sorts of good advice from anonymous folks before, from “Duck!” (oops) to “suck my…”–well maybe that last wasn’t such good advice. But you get the picture.

As I said in my response, I do all kinds of things on this blog I don’t do in regular life, from talking about my vagina to using complex analogies about the kyriarchy. (I do, however, bore folks with feminist analyses of French peri-impressionism.) I’ll confess to adopting Winged Water Fowl as a greeting as part of the quasi-folksy style I affect in the lighter posts hereabouts. At the very least, I figured I might be remembered as that “crazy lady who calls everyone Mallards.”

But I’d hate to slow my process; I’m not sure what that means, but it sure sounds bad! Seeing as it’s a slow day here at TSA (I spent most of it writing a proposal for a–I hope–largish client), I thought I would put it out there for you, du…er, wigeons: should I stop using That Word and call everybody something serious, like Fellow Denizens of the Feminist and Transfeminist blogospheres? I leave it to you!

Unless you consider it a wild goose chase.

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Bromantically Linked

Categories: douchebaggery, media tool kit, oh no not teh menz

Hello ducks! If you are like me, you watch television. (Actually, if you are like me, you watch too much television–stop it! It’s keeping you from doing better things, like read this blog!) And if, like me, you watch too much TV, then you’ve probably seen commercials for the next great man-child movie, The Hangover.

Of course, it may be difficult to pick out this new film from the constant swirl of frattish comedies–after all, it’s Judd Apatow’s world now, we just live in it. Never fear, though, ducks! The New York Times, in its ongoing mission of reminding us that all the news fit to print is by, for, and about men, has an article about The Hangover‘s creator, Todd Phillips.

In fact, the article makes Mr. Phillips out to be some sort of seer to the doucheoisie, a sort of guru of the frat boy picture. (In fact, one of his first movies was called, um, Frat House.) Mr. Phillips, in case you didn’t know, is the auteur behind Old School, Road Trip, and Starsky and Hutch. (Disclosure: I actually enjoyed the last one for the chemistry between Stiller and Wilson. I’m not perfect, ducks.) All in all, he has a portfolio that makes him the Apatow-lite, a secondary purveyor of the immature bromance.

Never fear, though: The Times breathlessly reports:

That doesn’t mean “The Hangover” can’t aspire to be the most grown-up work in Mr. Phillips’s unapologetically immature portfolio.

Well, that’s a relief–not the least because he doesn’t apologize for his movies! No, Todd Phillips is proud of his films! He wants you to squirm while watching–that is, if you are not an immature man-child (or at least aspire to be one.)

But wait! He’s not content for simple metaphysical torture–at least, where his actors are concerned:

Mr. Phillips does not always get his way. For a scene in which a police officer tests his stun gun on the guys, the director wanted his actors to be shot with a live Taser. “He goes, ‘Look at these clips on YouTube,’ ” Mr. Galifianakissaid. “ ‘It doesn’t hurt that much.’ And then the Warner Brothers lawyers stepped in, thank God.”

Well, there’s always next time–and given advances in technology, perhaps within a few years he’ll be able to tase the audience as well! Oh, think of the laughter we’ll have! Between the blackouts, that is.

Let’s give the last word to Todd, before he uses that darn taser again:

…[W]hen he tries to describe the plots of his films concisely, Mr. Phillips said recently, “the one-liners on my movies sound really retarded.” He chuckled briefly at his own analysis. “The movies, ideally, are better than they sound,” he added.

Speak for yourself, Mr. Phillips.

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Two Cheers for Monarchy

Categories: Humorless Tranny™, let's hear it for the ladies, teh tranz

Over at Shakesville there’s a heartwarming post about an openly gay student who was elected prom queen. (You can read the original story here.)

I’m certainly glad to know that a high school can be so accepting; the idea of a student being openly gay at my high school was unthinkable, and that was only–well, more than a decade ago. And I’m really happy that Sergio Garcia can be open, and be himself.

All that said, I’m afraid I have to be a bit of a wet blanket about this. Call me a Humorles Tranny™, but I as a trans woman I see a few complications with this whole thing.

First, I have to wonder: would somebody who was openly trans have been elected prom queen? (Maybe; it happened in Fresno.) Then there is the question of why somebody who doesn’t identify as female is even running for prom queen. According to the article, “He thought the role [of prom queen] would suit him better than prom king.” Yeah–isn’t that kind of the point? I mean, if he had been elected prom king, if the student body would have been happy to put him into that bastion of heterosexism, then you might have something to really talk about.

According to the article, his campaign began as a stunt “but ended up spurring discussion on the campus about gender roles and popularity.” Which is really wonderful–we need to have these discussions, especially in high school–but I can’t help feeling that it remained something of a stunt til the end.

For example, the article repeatedly makes it clear that despite running for prom queen, Sergio is all man.

“[I’m] not your typical prom queen candidate. There’s more to me than meets
the eye.”
“He also promised that he would be wearing a suit on prom night, but ‘don’t
be fooled: Deep down, I am a queen.”
“‘I don’t wish to be a girl,’ he told the Los Angeles Times. ‘I just wish to
be myself.'”

Call me oversensitive, but I see a lot of subtle trans- and femmephobia in there. There’s the clear implication that if he were to wear a dress, that would be somehow wrong. His “more than meets the eye” clearly echoes trans stereotypes in the media, from porn to movies. And fuckall, how am I supposed to read how he doesn’t want to be a girl–yet runs for prom queen–as anything other than the idea that a boy who did want to be a girl and run for prom queen would be weird, as opposed to his decidedly non-weird candidacy?

I’m sorry to be coming down so hard on this kid; truth be told, I’m happy that he won, happy he goes to a school that’s so accepting, and happy that the reporting on the story doesn’t smirk or treat the whole thing as ridiculous.

But compare this nice, respectful story about a clean-cut gay kid who gets to be prom queen with this (triggery) piece about a nice, respectful trans kid who gets elected prom queen. Thrill to the wondrous transphobia: the refusal to use her preferred name (Crystal), the emphasis on her height in heels (cause, you know, she’s totes a dude in drag), and fuckitall, the unconscionable refusal to use her preferred pronoun–even after noting she prefers to be called she. You read that story–picked up without comment on a website whose mission statement is “To encourage a world where globalization is not about homogeneity and exploitation, but rather, about diversity and cooperation”–and, if you are like me, you get pissed off and throw a wet blanket on somebody else’s party.

Because seriously, great for you Sergio, but am I really supposed to be happy that a guy took another woman’s job, even if that job is stupid and heterosexist to begin with?

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Fear of a Diverse Planet

Categories: privilege stories, teh tranz, Your RDA of Outrage

Warning: some of the links below may be triggery, as I went to the originals.

The Sotomayor nomination has once again driven the white male protestant establishment–who after all suffer from the greatest discrimination–in an uproar. And as usual a new coded language emerges–Sotomayor is a “bully” for dressing down (male) lawyers, that she got her nomination thanks to affirmative action, and, of course, she’s not qualified.

The idea that the white guys might be biased against everybody but white guys is of course ignored.

That is, of course, the gift of privilege–the ability to ignore it or pretend it doesn’t exist. White men are “normal” in this country–anybody not a white guy is a “minority” even though white men–and men in general–are the real minority in this country.

One of the things about being trans is that it has the potential to help you visualize your privilege, especially if you were, like me, a white male crossdresser–outside I looked no different than any other guy (well, except for the groomed eyebrows and long fingernails), but I knew that if anyone knew about my inner life, I’d immediately lose my “normal” status.

Not everybody makes use of this opportunity. I’ve met incredibly chauvanistic crossdressers–and even transsexuals aren’t immune; I’ve encountered many who were so busy sandcastling their privilege that they try to deny the womanhood of other transpeople. (Warning: super-triggery.)

(I’d be on their list for fessing to having identified as a crossdresser.)

Those who do, however, learn an important truth: that “normal” can’t live in the abscence of “abnormal”–that there always has to be some shadowy Other who opposes all your basic values. The shock of those people of privilege–like myself–who realize that their transness has made them that Other can often lead them to feel solidarity with all the other Others. (Perhaps this is why trans people still support lesbian and gay rights even after one of the largest gay rights groups threw us cruelly under the bus during the ENDA fiasco last year.)

Privilege is afraid of diversity, because it forces it to confront the Other; privilege hides in the language that underprivileged people use in order to subject them to ridicule; privilege, in short, is nothing else than fear of the Other, of losing that which didn’t belong to it in the first place, of having, in other words, “normal” become normal–a world where our various diversities of race, gender, religion, sexuality are no more important than our diversities in favorite sports team or ice cream flavors.

They live in fear, unfounded fear because diversity has never hurt anybody. Except in their minds.

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Vessels

Categories: the great woman theory of history, why i blog, your rda of misogyny

My friend Viola is a talented ceramacist. Not, I should mention, a potter–she doesn’t use a wheel. Her art is unique and organic (not to mention wonderful), but she hasn’t thrown a pot in years.

The other day she met a new member of the studio where she makes her art. They got to talking, and he mentioned that he had a dealer and was doing very well. (She later verified that via Google.) Now, like many artists (and bloggers), Viola is ambitious about her art and was immediately intrigued–and interested in how she might be able to network with this guy.

As they talked, he told her that he was putting together a group of artists and wondered if she might want to join? Of course she was interested, but–being a person of fierce integrity–she made sure to show him her work first. They talked for a while and agreed that her work really wouldn’t work with the rest of the show–but, the guy asked, could she throw some vessels for him? And it gradually dawned on Viola that all he wanted was her to make a lot of vessels for him to paint.

I find it strangely apt that this–let’s be fair–clueless tool would want her to make vessels for him. (Presumably narrow-necked for maximum–never mind.) I won’t belabor the obvious: that for centuries women have been seen as nothing but vessels for men–convenient receptacles for them to empty their important, creative work into–a holding pen for their serious ideas to gestate.

You don’t have to be a radical feminist to see that the idea of women being the non-creative side of birth as being a bit skewed.

Viola turned him down, for reasons both practical–she’s far too out of practice to make pots quickly with the quality she’d want–and personal: the guy was being completely exploitative of her. Because she’s quite capable of making her own art, thanks, and has no desire to be this guy’s vessel.

But hearing the story from her made me think about art, and my art (if that’s what I’m doing here is), and women in art. My favorite painting in the entire world is Manet’s Le dejeuner sur l’herbe (The Luncheon on the Grass):

It hangs in the Musée d’Orsay in Paris, and I always make a point of visiting it whenever I’m there; the canvas is enormous, and the vibrancy of the light–it never comes through in prints–is astonishing and always makes me smile.

But as much as I love this painting, being who I have become I can’t help but notice that it sums up attitudes towards women that sadly weren’t abandoned to the 19th century. That is, the only two roles available were the the object of the artist’s gaze–the nude woman in the foreground–or supporter, like the woman who is bathing in the background. Both fundamentally passive roles; how few of the works of the great masters show women doing anything other than, perhaps, resisting the rape of an overly amorous Olympian?

Of course, you can go another layer. The nude woman in Le dejeuner sur l’herbe is Manet’s longtime model, Victorine Meurent (though in an early example of Photoshopping, that’s her head on a more voluptuous model’s body.) Meurent was the model for Manet’s notorious Olympia, and that painting’s shocking subject–it certainly seems to depict a courtesan–led people to conclude, wrongly, that she herself must have been a prostitute.

In fact, she was an artist, and a successful one at that–she exhibited several times at the Salon des Artistes–although only one painting of hers is conclusively known to survive. In later life she was inducted into Societé des Artistes Françaises. She called herself an artist until she died.

I think of Victorine Meurent–the famous half smile, head tilted up in disdain or arch condescension–knowing that the gaze of the Great Man was falling on her and not demuring; bold, passionate yet tempered, willing to fight for her art and even sacrifice her own image in order to get the training she needed. I think of this Object who dared to be her own Subject, a woman born too early, perhaps, and yet still remaining as an enigmatic reminder that history is not always what They tell us it is. I think of her, and Viola, and vessels and painters, models and sculptors. And I write.

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