So what, you ducks want to breathlessly (well I hope not literally–I post so infrequently you’d be long out of oxy) know, does CL do with herself, since you don’t entertain and infuriate us lately?

I game.

I also work for a living and deal with worrying about getting fired, but I game a lot nowadays. And gaming eats a significant portion of whatever bandwidth I have between work and the things I do to keep me sane from work.

One of which is gaming. Have I mentioned that?

Gaming, ducks, means RPGS. Role playing games, the pen & paper and funny dice kind, not your Zeldas or Final Fantasies or what have you. For the first time since I was an itty-bitty trans gamer, I’ve been consistently getting a lot of gaming in.

One of these days I’m going to write about what it’s like to hit the table as both genders. Of course, three years ago people would actually have read it. Now? Who cares?

C. L. Minou went from being a D-List internet blogger to a has-been that never was. Or something.

Right, no pity party here. So, I play yer traditional Dungeons and Dragons clones, but for the last year or so I’ve been interested in what folks like to call Story games. RPGs, you see, that focus on storytelling and not tactical positioning. It’s interesting, and creative, and possibly a new genre of story telling.

So I hang out here, Story-Games.com, and it’s a nifty place, if a bit obscure for the newbie. And lately they’ve been having a discussion about getting more women involved in gaming communities.

This is a good thing. Women have a lot to contribute to gaming. I endorse it.

And of course the thread isn’t really being about including women.

I don’t know how many of the folks on the thread identify, but there’s sure a lot of butthurt and dismissal and…oh, WEV.

This is why it’s hard for me to blog lately.

‘Cos the fight is so bloody draining, and I have such limited bandwidth. And somewhere a while back I lost my fastball, and I don’t think there’s anything I can say that people care about.

And yet…not writing wears on me. I think about it. A lot. I miss the days of this place being a real going concern. But the inertia is so high.

Plus, I painted myself a bit in a corner here; I feel like I can’t expand the focus of the blog to other things in my life, can I?

Wait.

I guess I could.

I have to think about this…

Anyway, if you care about gaming and women in gaming, take a look at Story Games. And stay there! It’s a very cool place. Including the folks on the thread. Even if we have the irony again of a thread about women being dominated by men’s very special feelings.