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I went to my first bridal shower on Saturday. RYTHMOL alternatives, At least, my first one as a woman; I seem to recall showing up to my fiancee's shower back in the Pona Time before I transitioned.
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Not initially, though.
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Except that I was.
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That feeling lasted a few weeks. Then the dread set in.
Events like this play merry hell with my insecurities. It's times like these when I feel most acutely my lack of a girlhood, after RYTHMOL, the huge gaps in my socialization into ordinary female society. RYTHMOL FOR SALE, Normally, that doesn't bother me: after all, I'm not exactly unhappy that nobody told me I shouldn't study military history, or challenge my teachers, or be bad at math. RYTHMOL dosage, (I took care of the last one all by myself, ducks.) But times like these, so encrusted with (ok, no prescription RYTHMOL online, stupid) tradition and drenched in (ok, Buy RYTHMOL from mexico, ridiculous) mores--these leave me feeling exposed.
Or worse, leave me fearing that I'll be exposed.
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The next time I heard her refer to me, buy RYTHMOL online cod, she used male pronouns.
This sort of thing happens occasionally; my official rule is to give people three screwups before I correct them. Purchase RYTHMOL for sale, But this one put me in a fix: either say something, and draw attention to it, or ignore it and let her think that she was right, order RYTHMOL online overnight delivery no prescription. (But seriously: there weren't any men invited, Buy RYTHMOL from canada, I was wearing a dress, I was wearing high heels for fuck's sake--how do you think I prefer to be addressed?) I let it go that time. But it wasn't fun.
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My head was in a bit of a whirl. Part of my transition has been to finally put some distance between me as a trans person and me as a woman. That is, RYTHMOL pharmacy, after all these years of being trans, RYTHMOL from canadian pharmacy, of having that as the most important part of my life, I really want to try and just be for a while. RYTHMOL FOR SALE, I've done a gradual retreat from trans-only spaces, including a message board where I had been a long-time commentator.
But. I had been out with these other women, all or almost all of whom knew, and it wasn't a big deal; they didn't treat me any different than any of the other women at the party. So maybe I shouldn't worry about it, maybe I shouldn't care who knew and who didn't. Maybe it didn't matter.
But why did that make me feel so bad. Was I trying to be something I thought I had to be. (That worked out so well the last time I tried it.) Would I be happier not having anything trans in my life anymore. And if so, what about this blog, which gives me great pleasure to work on, even as it draws me back deeper into a world I am ambivalent about.
I still haven't figured it out yet. I hope I do. Because being stuck in the twilight zone of genders got old years ago.
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